Here goes another try.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Monday, August 6, 2012
How can I love myself right now if I do not ever plan on liking what I see? I do not want to look like this and I do not want to find a way to love how I look right now. I think that being in shape is attractive and that is what I want to love. However I do think that I have to love and respect myself enough in order to achieve a new look and lifestyle. But sadly, as of right now I am chubbier than ever, Dam it.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I shove things into my mouth that I know will only hurt me. Terrible foods, alcoholic drinks and smelly smoke. (sometimes) I feel like I am an idiot because the last thing that I want to do is die so why am I willingly increasing this risk? I try and not judge others but in this case.. I do. If you think that putting harmful things into your body can never have a negative effect on you or your loved ones than I think that you are really, really wrong. I think that more people should take responsibility for how they treat there health instead of just thinking that life threatening conditions like diabetes and other illnesses just appear. I am pissed off at myself because I know what can happen when harmful things enter your body and yet I put them into myself. I will never rest in peace if I know that I got my self into an early grave that Lily would stand over one day.
BUT I can rest in peace as of right now because I know that I am trying. I guess that I am just frustrated because I am finding this hard to change.